Moment of Plain Honesty
1 min readOct 2, 2019
I dreamt of hiding in my mattress last night
crawl deep inside, in a fetal position
hide everything: my skin, my facial expressions,
my thoughts, my insides, my tears
my imperfections and my fears
but I couldn’t
life events keep on drawing me out
as I struggle to say sober, not passing out
numbness of the mind
joy becomes too despicable to find
at times death feels so imminent
soul buried deep in eternal sand
asking for celestial help
but god is too busy in heaven
so I stop screamin’
closing my eyes, let the tumultuous tides win
all my breath’s gone after so much fighting
heart, ultimately decayed from so much resisting
